1. Admit to yourself that you need help
It has taken way too long for me to admit that I have a problem. Today [Aug. 20, 2016] was the first time that I cried due to my problem. I am bulimic. I have been this way for 11 years (on and off). I need to stop.
2. Avoid trigger foods
I recently signed up in an online support group. One of the members told me to avoid trigger foods. For me, that would be anything savory.
4. Know your trigger foods
I am pretty aware of this. Im sure most people are. For some people, I think their trigger would be sweets. For me, it would be savory foods like barbecue, burgers, pizza, pasta, any meat. The problem with savory foods is that when I burp, I could taste the meat which makes me want to eat more food. Its a vicious cycle.
5. Go vegan
I was in a process of transitioning towards vegetarianism. I was doing fine for a month. I was eating vegan at that time but during my recent grocery shopping (3 days ago), I purchased eggs, cheese and hotdogs. At first, I was fine. I rationalized that since I was still in the process of transitioning, there was no reason for me to be strict during my sudden lifestyle change, "eating hotdogs would be okay", I said to myself. Oh how wrong I was. I finished 15 hotdogs in 2 days and finished the other 15 hotdogs in a day in one sitting together with 3 cups of rice and 3 hard boiled eggs. This particular event led me to my latest purging. This made me conclude that the only way for me to overcome this disorder is to go vegan because I have never felt the need to throw up while I was eating clean vegan.
6. Say goodbye to buffet restaurants
I live in a place where buffet restaurants are a big hit. These places are full of foods that makes me feel super guilty and at the same time, makes me want to eat till I'm nauseated till I get my moneys worth.
7. Say no to junk foods. ( Yes, including the vegan ones)
During the very short time period where I was eating vegan, I have never felt the need to vomit. That's because I was eating clean. However, eating vegan does not mean that it could put an end to my bulimia. I once ate 5 packs of vegan ramyun in one sitting.
8. Do not buy in bulk
Most of my binge eating episodes were after a day at the grocery. I would usually buy my food supply for a week only to consume everything in one sitting. This includes a weeks' worth of junk food and a weeks' worth of viand. This does not include fruit and vegetables, because never have I ever had a thought of "I would like to binge on some fruits and vegetables right now"
9. Stop going to the convenience store
There are times when I don't have any temptations in my apartment and yet I still end up binge eating. All I need is a simple thought, "I would like some potato chips right now". This simple thought is enough to motivate me to go outside (even at 2am) and buy some. And literally EVERY TIME, I come back with more than just potato chips.
10. Don't get me started with fast food restaurants. Avoid them like the plaque.
OH.MY.GOD. they are everywhere. Do I even need to elaborate?
11. Do not listen to yourself
Seriously, my food choices are really bad. If I listen to myself, my staple meal would be all junk foods. Seriously. Listening to myself would mean letting go and giving up. There's this one time where I "listened" to myself and ended up with 6 pcs buffalo wings, a carbonara and meat lovers pizza from Shakeys which I ate in one sitting and then purged. NOPE. Just nope.
12. Have the strength to stop
As of now, the only way for me to stop this madness is to go completely vegan. Animal products does bad things to me. Even going vegetarian is inefficient because I could seriously binge on grilled cheese sandwiches and omelet.
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